Praise be to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! We made it through two stressful appointments with P this week.
Tuesday was his appointment with his endocrinologist. The visit went well. They had some tips for us as far as where to prick his fingers so he doesn't get calluses on the pads of his fingers. The diabetic educator went over P's blood sugar readings with me and made some changes to his insulin ratios and his sliding scale. We had not been giving P any insulin unless it was meal time, or his Lantus (24 hr). But we also have to start treating him with insulin any time he is over 200. This includes our 2 or 4 a.m. checks! P had fun sharing his jokes with the diabetic educator and especially Dr. Jones. Dr. Jones always has a joke for his patients...so P went to the appointment with his joke book in tow. Dr. Jones has excellent rapport with P, and I assume with all of his patients. I am so thankful for all the laughter we had while P was telling his jokes...because the worst was yet to come! At the end of our visit, when we were checking out...the diabetic educator met us at the desk and told us we needed blood work done to test P's A1C. (An A1C gives their average blood glucose level over the past 3 months). So I am thinking to myself...this will be interesting...P always does better if he knows about something in advance...but we weren't prepared for blood work. Well, he was less than cooperative. It took two nurses and myself to hold him in the chair to get the needle in. I wanted to cry too! Once the needle was in, he was fine. Then I realized that he would probably have to have this test done at every appointment, which is every three months!
As I was walking out of the hospital, I kept asking God, "Why me? Why does my son have to go through this? Please heal him of this disease!" My thoughts were then drawn to Esther...(I've been so interested in reading about Esther lately.) King Xerxes was looking for a new queen...and took Esther to be his queen. She was a jew, but didn't tell anyone about her family background or her nationality...her uncle Mordecai had told her not to share this information. Well, skip ahead to King Xerxes threatening the Jews...and who saves the day? Esther! In Esther 4:14 Mordecai told Esther, "Who knows if you were made queen for just such a time as this?" God knew Esther needed to be close to King Xerxes to have his plan fulfilled!
We have to trust in God's sovereignty...even though we go through trials and tribulations (and we don't know why things happen)...God has a plan...and a purpose! I want to make that verse above my own...I was made mommy of P for such as time as this!
This morning, P had to get some cavities filled at the dentist...also an interesting experience. The dentist had given him some medication to help him relax, but he was still "edgy." He couldn't eat this morning, so I was a little concerned about his sugar levels. (I did give him some juice, just to stay on the safe side.) Well, when they took us back into the room...he wouldn't sit in the chair. The assistant told him that I would have to leave if he wouldn't sit up in the chair. So, up he hopped, into the chair! They gave him some "happy gas" and he was fine. They filled one side and let him relax for a little bit before they did the other side. I checked his sugar, and it was ok for them to move on. When they started on the other side, he started crying (and at that point, the happy gas wouldn't work because he was too upset.) It's so hard to see your little child lying there upset and there is nothing you can do about it! When the dentist stopped drilling, he finally calmed down. His poor little mouth was all swollen...so he did get to eat a Wendy's frosty!
Over and over again in the last few days I've heard this song..."I turn to You," by Selah. So tonight I downloaded it...the chorus goes like this:
And here in your Holy Presence
It's all that I can do
I turn to you Jesus
I turn to you Lord
What else can I do Jesus?
I turn to you
Again, I just need to turn to God and rely on Him. He sees the big picture when we are at the end of our rope.
Ok - back to P and his week - do you know other than right during those negative experiences, P has been as normal as can be. He hasn't complained or whined about either thing! Add these situations to his already existing condition of shots and sugar checks...
How many of us could go through all that and not complain? And he's six!
I have to commend my lovely little boy...he gets over it and moves on...we all need a little of that child-like faith!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
I've replaced my sugar addiction....
with God!
So, I've been working on this post (in my head) since Friday...trying to gather my thoughts...so I thought I would just sit down and get them out...
For the last three months I think God has been trying to tell me that I need HIM and not sugar. Our family started cutting back our sugar, especially desserts, after P's diagnosis. But I still didn't feel right, physically or emotionally. My head was "foggy" and I was tired and grouchy all the time, especially in the evenings after work.
So then...we went on the Daniel Fast and NO sugar allowed! Do you know what I crave now more than sugar? God's Word! Spending time with Him! Praying! Sharing my thoughts here!
I don't think I even realized the effects that sugar had on my body. My mom and I were just talking tonight about how much clearer our minds are without the sugar. I can't say I'm never grouchy...but WAY less than I was 8 days ago.
How many pounds of sugar would you say the average person consumes in one year? 140 pounds! That's about 30 tsp a day! (and if you're a carb counting momma...that's 120 grams of pure sugar!)
Our brain naturally produces a "feel good" chemical called serotonin, in balanced amounts. When we eat sugar, the serotonin levels in our brain rise. That's why we feel good! (But is doesn't last long, does it?) I've often thought (as many of you probably have) after eating a sugary treat, "Why did I just eat that?" Was it really worth it? I usually eat it so fast...that I don't even really enjoy it!
I found a quote during my research that I found interesting: "Sugar is a drug that has no nutritional value and is an addictive chemical." Why not let God give us value and be addicted to Him?
"Life is like a box of chocolates...you never know what you are going to get!" - Forest Gump
(I just had to include that...) We know what we are going to get from God - strength!
Will I ever eat sugar again? Well, of course I will! But...with much more moderation and thought. First, I want to honor God with my temple and by letting Him sustain me. Second, my son needs my support. He has never once complained about not getting a sugary treat. He knows...he understands what's good for him and what he needs...and he's 6! He didn't have time to "think it over" or to "gradually" change his eating habits. Let's take refuge in God and try some of His rock candy!
So, I've been working on this post (in my head) since Friday...trying to gather my thoughts...so I thought I would just sit down and get them out...
For the last three months I think God has been trying to tell me that I need HIM and not sugar. Our family started cutting back our sugar, especially desserts, after P's diagnosis. But I still didn't feel right, physically or emotionally. My head was "foggy" and I was tired and grouchy all the time, especially in the evenings after work.
So then...we went on the Daniel Fast and NO sugar allowed! Do you know what I crave now more than sugar? God's Word! Spending time with Him! Praying! Sharing my thoughts here!
I don't think I even realized the effects that sugar had on my body. My mom and I were just talking tonight about how much clearer our minds are without the sugar. I can't say I'm never grouchy...but WAY less than I was 8 days ago.
How many pounds of sugar would you say the average person consumes in one year? 140 pounds! That's about 30 tsp a day! (and if you're a carb counting momma...that's 120 grams of pure sugar!)
Our brain naturally produces a "feel good" chemical called serotonin, in balanced amounts. When we eat sugar, the serotonin levels in our brain rise. That's why we feel good! (But is doesn't last long, does it?) I've often thought (as many of you probably have) after eating a sugary treat, "Why did I just eat that?" Was it really worth it? I usually eat it so fast...that I don't even really enjoy it!
I found a quote during my research that I found interesting: "Sugar is a drug that has no nutritional value and is an addictive chemical." Why not let God give us value and be addicted to Him?
"Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you; He will never permit the righteous to be moved."
Psalm 55:22 ESV
"Casting all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you."
1 Peter 5:7 ESV
Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.
Psalms 54:4 NIV
But the LORD has become my fortress, and my God the rock in whom I take refuge.
Psalms 94:22 NIV
"Life is like a box of chocolates...you never know what you are going to get!" - Forest Gump
(I just had to include that...) We know what we are going to get from God - strength!
Will I ever eat sugar again? Well, of course I will! But...with much more moderation and thought. First, I want to honor God with my temple and by letting Him sustain me. Second, my son needs my support. He has never once complained about not getting a sugary treat. He knows...he understands what's good for him and what he needs...and he's 6! He didn't have time to "think it over" or to "gradually" change his eating habits. Let's take refuge in God and try some of His rock candy!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Mustard Seed Faith
Today was an interesting day. I was up several times in the night with both kids. S was up crying at 2 a.m., and P had a low blood sugar at 3 a.m.. It was a stressful day at work...and I wanted some chocolate! (I did not give in to temptation!)
But all day I've been thinking about a thought from my prayer last night before I went to sleep. In that prayer, I was reminded of Jesus' parable of having faith like a mustard seed. (Luke 17:5-6)
I did some research about mustard seeds and found some interesting facts.
-they are small (about the size of the point on a pencil), but alive and growing
-they produce seed in as few as 60 days
-their greens are edible, their flowers attractive
-mustard will grow well in moist soils, but will produce the most seed in rich, well-drained, well-prepared soil
-will thrive if given constant moisture
-if you are interested in harvesting a lot of seed, feed plants regularly
-the plants are blissfully free of insects and disease problems
So here are my thoughts (after some research) on Jesus comparing faith to a mustard seed.
-we are small compared to God...and He only requires us to have a small amount of faith, as long as it is genuine.
-we can start seeing our faith produce seeds quickly (as I've found this week)
-God can use all of us...our whole being....we need to be ready and willing to hear from Him
-our soil (our temple, our body) needs to be well-prepared (mine feels great, thanks to the Daniel Fast!)
-we need God constantly
-spend time in His Word
-with God our problems are small and insignificant and don't really bother us
Luke 17:6 "The apostles said to the Lord, 'Show us how to increase our faith.' The Lord answered, 'If you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, 'May you be uprooted and thrown into the sea,' and it would obey you."
What is faith? A complete trust and loyalty to God that results in a willingness to do His will.
How much faith do we need? A small amount of genuine faith will take root and grow.
How do you increase your faith? Romans 10:17, "...faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God..."
So what does all this have to do with my diabetic child? Well, beyond my human mind and comprehension, and with that mustard seed faith...I give control of P's sugar levels to God. I pray that God heals P, if that's His will.
Part of P's prayer tonight...and this was no prompting from his blogging mom...he said, "God, I just pray that you will help control my sugar levels tomorrow while we're skiing. That I don't have any lows."
He's an amazing little guy and God definitely has something great in store for him. I'm amazed at his bravery in everyday life and his confidence in God.
God is awesome!
But all day I've been thinking about a thought from my prayer last night before I went to sleep. In that prayer, I was reminded of Jesus' parable of having faith like a mustard seed. (Luke 17:5-6)
I did some research about mustard seeds and found some interesting facts.
-they are small (about the size of the point on a pencil), but alive and growing
-they produce seed in as few as 60 days
-their greens are edible, their flowers attractive
-mustard will grow well in moist soils, but will produce the most seed in rich, well-drained, well-prepared soil
-will thrive if given constant moisture
-if you are interested in harvesting a lot of seed, feed plants regularly
-the plants are blissfully free of insects and disease problems
So here are my thoughts (after some research) on Jesus comparing faith to a mustard seed.
-we are small compared to God...and He only requires us to have a small amount of faith, as long as it is genuine.
-we can start seeing our faith produce seeds quickly (as I've found this week)
-God can use all of us...our whole being....we need to be ready and willing to hear from Him
-our soil (our temple, our body) needs to be well-prepared (mine feels great, thanks to the Daniel Fast!)
-we need God constantly
-spend time in His Word
-with God our problems are small and insignificant and don't really bother us
Luke 17:6 "The apostles said to the Lord, 'Show us how to increase our faith.' The Lord answered, 'If you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, 'May you be uprooted and thrown into the sea,' and it would obey you."
What is faith? A complete trust and loyalty to God that results in a willingness to do His will.
How much faith do we need? A small amount of genuine faith will take root and grow.
How do you increase your faith? Romans 10:17, "...faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God..."
So what does all this have to do with my diabetic child? Well, beyond my human mind and comprehension, and with that mustard seed faith...I give control of P's sugar levels to God. I pray that God heals P, if that's His will.
Part of P's prayer tonight...and this was no prompting from his blogging mom...he said, "God, I just pray that you will help control my sugar levels tomorrow while we're skiing. That I don't have any lows."
He's an amazing little guy and God definitely has something great in store for him. I'm amazed at his bravery in everyday life and his confidence in God.
God is awesome!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
"If I Ever Needed You"
First of all, let me say...GOD IS AWESOME! (Another day of great sugar levels and amazing happenings)
Songs have been the theme of my day...
When I woke up this morning I had these words in my heart..."I'm desperate for your hand...I need you now..." I couldn't place what these words were from...but as I laid in bed, I kept thinking, "I need you God, I need you to get me through this day." (I am not a morning person and mornings are very hard). I just kept repeating over and over in my mind...I need you God...I need you God... I was thinking that these words were from a song, but I couldn't think of what the song was. So, when I got out of bed, I went and wrote down those words that had been on my heart. I wanted to be able to Google those words and see what song they were from.
I continued with my morning routine, but still could not think of what song those words were from. The only song that I could sing was "How Great Is Our God" by Chris Tomlin (more about this later...again, God is AWESOME!).
All day long I tried and tried to remember what song had been on my heart in the morning. This evening, after work, I was able to search for those words that I had thankfully written down. So after a few google searches, I found the song I was looking for..."If I Ever Needed You" by Casting Crowns. Curiosity got the best of me, and I had to know why the song was written. So, again, I Googled it. Mark, from Casting Crowns, wrote this particular song. He tells of lying in bed one night tossing and turning. His wife tells him to tell God, "Speak Lord for your servant hears." (If you read my post yesterday, it was about drawing near to God and asking Him to answer prayers...see, God is AWESOME!) Anyway, back to Mark's story...so he lays in bed a little longer and prays that God will give him a word or give him rest. Then he realizes that he's been laying there humming a melody for those several tossing and turning hours. He got up and went to his keyboard and played the chord he had been humming and within a short amount of time, had the first verse to "If I Ever Needed You." He goes on to talk about the desperation we should have to know God. We should want to be close to God personally and corporately. Wow! Hello, we're in the Daniel Fast!
Does God speak to us? He does when we ask...and we listen...
Now I did mention earlier about another song on my heart today...it seemed to stick with me all day. Well, tonight in our Wednesday night Bible study we were studying about God's AWESOMENESS (if you didn't get that already). At the end of class Jerry showed a YouTube video - I don't want to say anymore, it may spoil the video. Check it out...it is called "Louie Giglio Mashup of Stars and Whales Singing God's Praise."
At this moment, I am just awestruck at the last few days. I'm so anxious for what's ahead...
Songs have been the theme of my day...
When I woke up this morning I had these words in my heart..."I'm desperate for your hand...I need you now..." I couldn't place what these words were from...but as I laid in bed, I kept thinking, "I need you God, I need you to get me through this day." (I am not a morning person and mornings are very hard). I just kept repeating over and over in my mind...I need you God...I need you God... I was thinking that these words were from a song, but I couldn't think of what the song was. So, when I got out of bed, I went and wrote down those words that had been on my heart. I wanted to be able to Google those words and see what song they were from.
I continued with my morning routine, but still could not think of what song those words were from. The only song that I could sing was "How Great Is Our God" by Chris Tomlin (more about this later...again, God is AWESOME!).
All day long I tried and tried to remember what song had been on my heart in the morning. This evening, after work, I was able to search for those words that I had thankfully written down. So after a few google searches, I found the song I was looking for..."If I Ever Needed You" by Casting Crowns. Curiosity got the best of me, and I had to know why the song was written. So, again, I Googled it. Mark, from Casting Crowns, wrote this particular song. He tells of lying in bed one night tossing and turning. His wife tells him to tell God, "Speak Lord for your servant hears." (If you read my post yesterday, it was about drawing near to God and asking Him to answer prayers...see, God is AWESOME!) Anyway, back to Mark's story...so he lays in bed a little longer and prays that God will give him a word or give him rest. Then he realizes that he's been laying there humming a melody for those several tossing and turning hours. He got up and went to his keyboard and played the chord he had been humming and within a short amount of time, had the first verse to "If I Ever Needed You." He goes on to talk about the desperation we should have to know God. We should want to be close to God personally and corporately. Wow! Hello, we're in the Daniel Fast!
Does God speak to us? He does when we ask...and we listen...
Now I did mention earlier about another song on my heart today...it seemed to stick with me all day. Well, tonight in our Wednesday night Bible study we were studying about God's AWESOMENESS (if you didn't get that already). At the end of class Jerry showed a YouTube video - I don't want to say anymore, it may spoil the video. Check it out...it is called "Louie Giglio Mashup of Stars and Whales Singing God's Praise."
At this moment, I am just awestruck at the last few days. I'm so anxious for what's ahead...
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
James 4:8
"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you."
That's the thought that was stirring in my spirit as I woke this morning. I rushed to my phone and clicked on the Bible app. I searched "draw near to God," and found James 4:8.
How appropriate during the Daniel fast AND for the past three months! Submission to God! (I'm finding that life is all about less sugar!)
Well, my thoughts always lead to songs (a genetic trait from my mom)...so I started singing the song "Sing for Joy."
Sing for joy to God our strength
Sing for joy to God our strength, our strength
If we call to Him, He will answer us
If we run to Him, He will run to us
If we lift our hands, He will lift us up
Come now praise His name, all you saints of God.
Draw near to Him, He is here with us
Give Him your love, He's in love with us
He will heal our hearts, He will cleanse our hands
If we rend our hearts, He will heal our land.
So what does it mean to draw near? To approach Him, to pursue fellowship with the Lord.
While searching the Internet today, I came across a commentary on James 4:8 - ponder this one:
"We neither earn nor deserve this, yet the Father delights in fellowship with us. He welcomes our voice and takes pleasure in answering our prayers."
If you need something or want something...why not just ask? Requests given with the right motive and with a clean heart and hands...God says, "Why Not?" (If you saw the movie "We Bought A Zoo," this comment makes more sense.)
P.S. - GREAT SUGAR LEVELS AGAIN TODAY!!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!!!
That's the thought that was stirring in my spirit as I woke this morning. I rushed to my phone and clicked on the Bible app. I searched "draw near to God," and found James 4:8.
How appropriate during the Daniel fast AND for the past three months! Submission to God! (I'm finding that life is all about less sugar!)
Well, my thoughts always lead to songs (a genetic trait from my mom)...so I started singing the song "Sing for Joy."
Sing for joy to God our strength
Sing for joy to God our strength, our strength
If we call to Him, He will answer us
If we run to Him, He will run to us
If we lift our hands, He will lift us up
Come now praise His name, all you saints of God.
Draw near to Him, He is here with us
Give Him your love, He's in love with us
He will heal our hearts, He will cleanse our hands
If we rend our hearts, He will heal our land.
So what does it mean to draw near? To approach Him, to pursue fellowship with the Lord.
While searching the Internet today, I came across a commentary on James 4:8 - ponder this one:
"We neither earn nor deserve this, yet the Father delights in fellowship with us. He welcomes our voice and takes pleasure in answering our prayers."
If you need something or want something...why not just ask? Requests given with the right motive and with a clean heart and hands...God says, "Why Not?" (If you saw the movie "We Bought A Zoo," this comment makes more sense.)
P.S. - GREAT SUGAR LEVELS AGAIN TODAY!!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!!!
Monday, January 16, 2012
3 months after D-day
First of all, Praise be to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ!
My, how far God has brought us since October 16, 2011. All I can do is PRAISE Him and THANK Him for all his many blessings!
Just an update on how things are going, 3 months "post-diagnosis."
Things were going really well, or so I thought...
The last two and a half weeks have been interesting. P and S both had the flu. Having the flu (or any sickness) complicates P's diabetes. His sugar levels were high all day and then before bed kept dropping lower and lower. We were ready to take him to the ER. But once he vomited, and we were able to get him to eat and drink a little, his levels started increasing. It was a long night, but we made it!
He has continued to have some highs and lows. His normal range should be between 80-150. He has been as low as 44 and as high as 501. (These numbers were both in one day!)
I was about at the end of my rope and could not see the end in sight. (Plus, when I spoke with a nurse at the doctor's office, she told me it could take 2 years to regulate his levels!)
So....the GOOD NEWS! Shon and I are participating in the Daniel Fast at our church. Our main focus for prayer and fasting is to HEAL P from this disease and until that happens, to help us have peace and patience in managing his diabetes.
Well...I started the fast Saturday and Shon started yesterday...P's levels today were AWESOME! He ranged from 74 to 164. These levels I can handle! PRAISE GOD!
I cannot face these daily (and sometimes minute by minute) challenges without God! I can place my diabetic son in His arms and rest, knowing that He is always checking his sugar levels.
My, how far God has brought us since October 16, 2011. All I can do is PRAISE Him and THANK Him for all his many blessings!
Just an update on how things are going, 3 months "post-diagnosis."
Things were going really well, or so I thought...
The last two and a half weeks have been interesting. P and S both had the flu. Having the flu (or any sickness) complicates P's diabetes. His sugar levels were high all day and then before bed kept dropping lower and lower. We were ready to take him to the ER. But once he vomited, and we were able to get him to eat and drink a little, his levels started increasing. It was a long night, but we made it!
He has continued to have some highs and lows. His normal range should be between 80-150. He has been as low as 44 and as high as 501. (These numbers were both in one day!)
I was about at the end of my rope and could not see the end in sight. (Plus, when I spoke with a nurse at the doctor's office, she told me it could take 2 years to regulate his levels!)
So....the GOOD NEWS! Shon and I are participating in the Daniel Fast at our church. Our main focus for prayer and fasting is to HEAL P from this disease and until that happens, to help us have peace and patience in managing his diabetes.
Well...I started the fast Saturday and Shon started yesterday...P's levels today were AWESOME! He ranged from 74 to 164. These levels I can handle! PRAISE GOD!
I cannot face these daily (and sometimes minute by minute) challenges without God! I can place my diabetic son in His arms and rest, knowing that He is always checking his sugar levels.
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